Just forget about
I decided to forget about all optimizations on such a level. It makes you feel bad for finding out more precious details about why it doesn't work and so on. I don't like to think about it anymore. But my plans to make my own language come reality will stay. I had a lot of time to think about it today and it makes me more happy than trying to make stuff the language isn't made for. Now I see C++ only as another language that has it's of course natural borders. Noone should force it to something it isn't made for. So I'm having my plan will make use of all things it is made for and not for what it is not made for. That is another place.